(This webpage is a WIP, but for now you can go to
my writing website
to see me talk a little more about who I am - it might be a little outdated tho cuz I haven't updated it in a hot minute lol - though I have *not* abandoned it)
Hi ^^ I go by
Helleflower, or Helle for short. I revere reality, and so one of the things that drives so much of me is understanding and appreciating it. For a lot of these largely because of that, I’m passionate about physics, math, philosophy, writing, visual art, programming, 3d modeling and web revival, among many other things (those are the main ones though; some of the next biggest are psychology, botany and biology).
I have massive social anxiety, like *really bad*. Literally as of writing this, this week I just pushed myself to ride the bus (which makes me super anxious, like navigating my body in the vicinity of other people), only because I felt really unwell, instead of a half an hour miserable uphill trek that I've been making twice a week. I'm working hard on it, but it's generally hard for me to like write in people's guestbooks or things like that (though I really try to). I think maybe I can seem unapproachable, but I would really love to be approached. Literally, if someone came up to me, whacked me over the head and said "hi let's be friends" I'd be over the moon, so one can only imagine how appreciative I'd be of that minus the having violence inflicted upon me.
Seriously I'd love for you to leave me a guestbook comment or an email (uwusearch@gmail.com) or a letter through
Slowly ^^ (my ID's ZVKW5DM)
Since this is a handmade search engine btw, I'm familiar to some extent with all the ideas in the writing/websites linked, so if you do reach out to me, I'm totally down to talk about any of it if you'd like :3
(talk abt how my transness is a huge part of who I am 🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧️🏳️⚧🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️ )
(probably mention like the pursuing theoretical physics and in undergrad, but I don't really wanna talk that much about academia and junk)